Do you have people in your life that you have known forever and when they tell you they are proud of you, you can feel yourself get excited? I do and it's the same people that even when I was little and looked like I needed some real hair help and contacts they still made me feel like I had something to contribute! I have a lot of these people! I am very blessed! It got me thinking that people often only remember the way someone made you feel! Not what you did or they did but how they made you feel when you were around them! I really want to be the kind of person that when people leave me they think ....."I feel better or uplifted" I will be working on that ;)

Today I read one of my FB friends comments and she was talking about how she just sent her Little girl off to camp. Scary the first time for any mama, but this little one is type 1! That through's a whole new wrench into the game! She was saying how even though her child is not there she still wakes up for blood sugar checks in the night! I will surely be doing this too this weekend! Even though you aren't with your little people they are always with you! Yeah even when I take a sleeping aid! Still wake up same bat time, same bat channel! Mama's instincts are hard to break!
Ava had a low today and was able to tell me she was "feeling shaky" I'm so glad that she is at the point where she can feel something is not right! Not that I wont prick her finger's the same amount of times because let's face it she's sneaky and knows how to work me when she wants apple juice or oj.

I thought this blog would be about Ava and my daily struggles but I have been inspired! and I think when I saw that my nephew was back in the hospital for the 3rd time with leukemia I just needed to do something. But what? well I had seen another child fighting cancer and someone in his family asked people to send him cards to inspire him or just make him laugh! They did! over 1000 cards! I thought wow all you have to do is ask people and they will help! So I did and immediately I got responses! The cards are comin in baby! I think Ava and me are more excited about the mail than Michael may be about getting the dang cards! I also was thinking about how a few weeks ago my husband had been given tickets to an Angel's game and we couldn't use them. I thought about the kids I have been so blessed to meet in my life the ones fighting cancer or the other diabetic kids I have met through there moms! I decided to asked one of "my kid's " moms and see if he may want to use the tickets! She was thrilled! He had the best time and I did too getting pictures from him and his dad eating hot dogs and cheering all night! This kid wasn't thinking about all his treatments with chemo or the radiation burns on his body or how he may not grow to "normal size" Nope he was thinkin how he could get dad to buy him another hot dog and if the Angels were gonna have a win that night!

The next week I got a similar question..."hey bek, do you have anymore tickets you could get for an Angels game? I saw the other little boy on your FB page and thought I would ask. Well I didn't but I figured I will "just ask" And within the next few hours I got a message from a friend who posted what I had asked on her FB page. One of her friends responded to her and said " I have tickets and he can have them!" Now this was a perfect stranger to me and to Parker, my diabetic buddy whose mama had asked about him going!
This surprised me again! It shouldn't have but did! People want to help they just aren't sure how to! And I was thinking I know there is MAKE A WISH and some of those organizations but why do these kids have to be on deaths door to get to go to a game or a show? Why not just asked people, connect them if you will? Someone has something they can't use and would like to see a kid who often can't afford to do the extras because mom and dad are just barely making it to keep the insurance they have! So out of that I decided to make a way through me to the kids. One's that I know that need a little pick me up after having hospital stays and countless doctor appointments!
So I'm "Just going to ask" and see how far this can go!

There are so many people to thank for helping me with this little adventure! My sister's who sit and listens and go through idea's with me! Holly who is brilliant and is my "person" who makes me feel proud of myself whenever I talked to her! For my FB friends who when I "JUST ASK" them to do something they are on it! And most importantly for these kids who make me want to be a better person! Who make me want to go out on the street and if I had to beg for something! They are the real hero's! My big girl who first taught me true courage when faced with cancer! Who I watched go through tests that I had never even heard of and had to sit back and watch her endure! And for precious ava! My little big girl who has needles stuck in her tummy, and port sights in her rump and thousands of pricks on her finger's and rarely makes a fuss! You amaze me and I love you!

If you know of a child in your life that needs something? Maybe even just a card to cheer them up after a hospital stay or while they are recovering from a chemo treatment, ask me! Let me see who may be out there willing to help! And if you think you can help in any small way let me know!! By encouraging words or cards or if you ever know you have tickets to something you cant use, let me know! Let me try to connect you with a kid who you may be able to help! Or parent's that rarely get out because they tend to there special needs kids!
I will "just ask" for you! it can't hurt but it sure could help!